I need constant reassurance. Sigh why am I so insecure? Soon, you will be sick and tired of reassuring me. :(

Quoted from ohsofickle.blogspot.com

FRIDAY, DECEMBER 9, 2011

Thoughts
I can tell you I’m fine. I can tell everyone I’m fine.

But inside, i feel nothing but emptiness. I always base my happiness on one person and when that one person is gone, I lose the ability to feel happy.

I’ve been thru this before. Told myself “the next time I won’t”. But I can’t. It’s just me. I never learn. When I love, I become stupid. I become delusional. I picture a future with the person and think nothing will go wrong. I forget the word “change” exists.

I have this perfect picture of how I want things to turn out and I believe in it too much. They say fairytales don’t exist but in my mind it does. They say we should not expect cus with expectation comes disappointment. But I don’t believe anyone actually applies that to their lives. We’re human and no one would want to live in misery forever. We'll at least expect happiness to come to us someday right? I mean if we really gave up expecting things to get better, wouldn't we all really turn to suicide and give up on life?

i feel like the dumbest girl on earth.

keep telling myself i need to move on i have to move on and i will move on.

its either we remain as a couple or stranger again.

so if you do not ever want me back again then fucking hell get out of my life and dont play with my feelings anymore.

i really hate breaking down. esp in public. u never fail to make me cry with every fucking sms that u sent to me.

trying to let go.

everyone ask me why wont i let go.

i know if i let go this time round, u will never chase me back again. oh wait. u never did.

fucked up feeling. never felt like this before, u havent realised how much u mean to me do u?

fuck you seriously, fuck you for all the damaged you have done to me.

single and ready to mingle. just a cover up.

trying to put on a front and move on every single day without you.

it hurts but i will get over it i will get used to it i will move on and i need to move on. because i know youre no good for me.

3 fucking packs of tissues for this.

fuck you.